I have a date. A date with a plane and a date with a very wonderful Dutch man.
The ticket has been bought. But.. I'm not announcing that date yet. Give me a day for it to sink in and then I will do a mass announcement.
Holy shit. I just bought a plane ticket to Europe. To move. To live, to work in another country. Wow.
W. and I had a very serious talk at zero-hour before I confirmed my purchase; what it would mean for us, how we'll continue to proceed in our relationship, acknowledging there will be good days and bad, but every day I will make a very conscious decision and choose to love him and choose to make an effort in our relationship and our lives - and that effort will be happily be met and returned.
For now.. I am very tired and very overwhelmed. Not only have I dealt with the good today, but the past 24hrs I have also dealt with the not-so-good (Babu and finding him a home). To say it's heartbreaking is saying it lightly. And it's still not finished.
So I'm going to have a quiet evening, let everything sink in... and just chill. I think I'm even too mentally tired for a movie.