Right, so, I think the problem is that I feel guilty whenever I try to feel the appropriate self-worth I should. Something along the way has told me it's not right, or selfish or what have you. Why? Who knows. Somehow people, life events and the world around me has conditioned me to feel accordingly. I really don't care about delving into the 'why' right now, I just want to deal with the 'what'. At least now that I'm cognizant of it, I can take responsibility and ownership for my feelings, actions, etc.
What next? Dude, I don't know. I'm just happy I got this far :)