Monday, December 14, 2009

Holiday Malaise and Other Miscellany

There hasn't been much "holiday" celebrating or festivities (though it is still early) so I've been a little.. well.. not in the mood much still. I hate that I'm starting to hate Christmas because I used to love it so much. I've been feeling very lonely. Yes, I know, being a Christian (a Catholic, at that) I should be all geared up about Jesus and religious symbolism... blah blah blah, but I just... can't. Don't get me wrong, I am more of an inward religious person, if you will. I love my faith and I practice a lot of things privately, but this particular holiday is a lot about family and gatherings and spending it with the one you love. It's not a holiday for single folk. Meh. Sorry to be a downer. I'll save you from my babble.

Work is going interesting. I've learned a new routine, recently and I'm still getting used to it. It's different than the other two floors I've worked on. Much different. I only spend half of the shift upstairs and the other half downstairs in the kitchen prepping for the next day (and unluckily for me, it involves working in a -20 C walk-in freezer for 15 minutes). I think I like the routine it's just hard to get used to; I haven't found my "groove" yet. I'll be training someone new in a few days on one of the other floors. I'm a little anxious about doing a really good job because I haven't trained anyone in this job yet (other jobs, but not this one).

Oh, finished reading Animal Farm; a very interesting book about human behaviour. It's funny that we end up creating the exact thing we fear in the first place.

I made my very first lasagna the other night. I know, sacrilege. I couldn't believe how easy it was. And yummy!! But then I remembered I'm still a little lactose-intolerant and I had an entire dish of lasagna to go through. As it was, the first night I had a large piece and got very sick. I'm still not used to this whole.. being lactose-intolerant thing. What can I say? I love dairy! *sigh* (So I've been going through it very slowly.)

I still need to finish some Christmas cards. Yes, late. Don't judge.

Well, the cat has decided to have a nap and I think I'm ready for a tea. A little tired today so I might go to bed early. Doesn't look like Brothers & Sisters is on tonight. Ooh.. maybe I'll have a bath.

I hope everyone had a good weekend :)


hydra said...

I sympathise about being lactose intolerant. Any dairy makes me sniffle and cough, and chocolate gives me stomach ache. Not fair! Also empathise with being single at Christmas. I went through that for years, but now that I'm part of a twosome I sometimes find myself yearning for the 'old days' when I could say 'bah, humbug' to the commercial side of things and shut myself in with a cold bottle of bubbly, my old jim-jams and furry socks on and veg out in front of Friends. Yes, those WERE the days!

Bix said...

For some reason, lighting a candle seems to dash the winter doldrums for me. Dunno, maybe it's because I live in a cold climate.

Perovskia said...

hydra - thanks, girl. I know, the grass is always greener on the other side, whichever side you're on. I should be thankful regardless and I know everything happens for a reason, but I'm just lonely, y'know? Anyhoo, a prayer has also been answered, so we'll see how that goes this weekend. Wish me luck!

Bix - You're very right and I just lit a couple (I have tons from the candle party I had and I've been enjoying them). We're sitting at 21F right now, so we're also a little chilly.

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