CBC, I just found out, is hosting Saturday Night Blues show tonight. I'm more of a jazz and classical girl... but I'm just in the mood for some good 'ol blues (I love John Lee Hooker).
We're getting a fantastic snowfall tonight. It started snowing on my way to Mass (before 5) and I was covered by the time I got in the church. Good homily tonight (don't ask me to repeat it, though, I have short-term memory). To my pleasant surprise, I met up with CZ and boyfriend after and visited briefly, exchanged a quick smile with JC and battled the roads home. Despite snow coming up way past my ankles, my Merrells held up. I love you, Merrell. Feet are warm and dry. I'm enjoying the snow from my windows only now and am writing by candle light. Oh, and accompanied by a nice, hot tea :)
Hmm.. now how can I broach the next subject ever so vaguely. I've discussed with a couple people some recent happenings with JC. Some people get it, some people don't. Then I wonder why I discuss things at all. I went through the same scenario with the ex (though an entirely different situation). I think humans are funny that we need to discuss things with others to get their opinions, thoughts, observances, judgments (don't misinterpret that as I like to be judged, I'm just saying it happens sometimes). We don't look within enough to slow down and experience what we feel (or I should say we don't slow down enough to look within?). Our hearts, minds and body will often guide us. We just don't always want to listen. I might say I won't know what to do about a particular situation, but I know full well it's because I haven't slowed down enough to 'listen'. Anyways, the whole point of me bringing this up is that I fear some people don't understand if I don't do something they suggested (and they may have my best interests at heart or are coming from a good place) and I feel criticized. I went through this with K. People didn't understand what I was doing (and I can assure you, as a result, thought I was crazy) but I found out not long ago it *was* for a reason and I did the right thing. So.. maybe I just need to stop discussing shit. Which is tough, because that 'being human to a fault' comes in and I like discussing things with my friends. We all do that, right? So... what's a girl to do? I don't know. All I know is when I quiet everything around me, listen within and to The Big Guy, I'm guided correctly. So I guess I just answered my own question/rant/whine.
There was something else I wanted to philosophize about, but I'm at a loss now. I think it's a good time to get ready for bed and relax with a book. Enjoy your Saturday night. Be careful if you're surrounded by snow; try not to go out if you don't have to, be safe if you do. Snuggle up with someone. Stay warm :)