Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Health, Expanded.. And Pictures! (but not of the health) :)

Well, I finally finished Jane Austen's Persuasion.  What a fantastic ending, to which I stayed up late reading.  I figured, I don't sleep well anyways, so what the hell's the point with going to bed at a decent time?  Now I can start reading, The Wayfinders (from the CBC Massey Lecture series - "Why Ancient Wisdom Matters in the Modern World").  Looking forward to that.

I've had the a/c running the past couple days.  Waiting for this heat to break.  Babu and I are comfortable :)

Well, I don't really want to talk about it, but there's no use avoiding it.  So.. yes, it was confirmed I have sleep apnea; something I was in dire denial about.  This is the one thing I *didn't* want.  It's only moderate, he says (apparently stopped breathing 20 times an HOUR is moderate).  He kept asking me if I was diabetic (if he clued in when I told him I was PRH he would understand I'm the opposite of diabetic) and if I've had blood clots (no).  I have large tonsils (which I knew about) that factor in a bit.  Then he asks, "Has your doctor ever discussed with you metabolic syndrome?"  "No."  ... .  He said it's hard to diagnose, but I have a couple contributing factors (which apparently is all it takes).  Losing weight is mandatory, but I knew that.  He wants me to get a CPAP machine, to which I said I can't afford ("Did you know the province pays for most of it?" "No." "Yes, and they'll just leave you with a bill of $200-$400." "I can't afford that.") but we're going to have a trial run of a CPAP machine to just see how it goes.  I also have to get a stress test done and a methacholine test (asthma).  I wasn't expecting to be relayed with so much information yesterday.  I asked if there were other options other than getting a CPAP machine and he said, "Yes, but they're more expensive".  With all due respect to him and his geniusness, I'm going to do a hell of a lot more research to find out what else I can do.  I see him again at the end of August for follow-up, so I have until then to do it.  Man, I haven't even seen the endocrinologist yet - I'm starting to fear that appointment.

I feel like I'm going to be dead in 5 years.  I've never had so much wrong with me.  What's going on?!?!  I'm 34 for crying out loud.  34!!  Not 84!  Hells bells.. that reminds me.. I have to call my gram to get an update on my aunt.  Alright, well, I'm too pissed off about this health stuff, so I need to putter around the apartment.  I will leave you on a more positive note, though... with pictures! :)

.... is it Friday yet?

A tiger lily, post-rain.

Babu, with his usual unimpressed look. He lays in front of the kitchen sink.. which can make it difficult to do dishes on the best of days.

When I was waiting for the doc in the pulmonologists office yesterday, they had this pamphlet.  I can't tell you how many things I find wrong with this.  "Pandemic prepared"?!?  And we wonder why people freak out; they're already subconsciously tense because of bullshit propaganda like this!  Gah! (And yes, that is the coffee mug I use every morning and yes it's Winnie the Pooh - don't judge :) ).

A little mini path I take on my walk home (this was last night).  The park is freshly cut, crop circles around the trees and that fresh cut grass smell... mmm.  If there's ever a scent of summer, that would definitely be one of them.

In a few days, this will be covered with tiger lilies.  I'll try my best to capture them.


hydra said...

Yes, it's bad to have things wrong with you but it's good that you're 34 'cos they'll try hard to get you fixed, whereas they wouldn't try so hard if you were 84. (Well, not in the UK, anyway!) Look on the bright side. Instead of mysterious symptoms, they're beginning to find out what's wrong, and that's constructive and optimistic.

Perovskia said...

You're right, and I know all that, but I'm allowed to be upset at first, right?

It'll pass and I'll dig my heels into fixing it all. It's all good :) I WILL get better!

The cottage by the Cranelake said...

Winnie the Pooh is my hero :-) :-) I think that´s a great mug! My sail bot was named the swedish name on Winnie the Pooh :-) :-)

You´ve really got a lot of different diseases! Suddenly I feel real healthy :-) :-) I only have psoriatic arthritis.
Take care of Yourself now!

Perovskia said...

Christer - Yay! A fellow Winnie the Pooh fan :) And um.. thanks.. you really know how to make a girl feel special :P

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