I had a down day, after yesterdays post. To top it off, my arm *really* hurt at work last night (it was day 7) and I had to get help delivering dinner. Even carrying a full dinner tray, I felt my arm was going to give out. I'm still sore today and will be telling physio when I go this morning and maybe get some extra treatment.
I've been laying low for a while. Keeping my Facebook status 'offline', keeping most chats 'offline' or 'invisible' actually. Don't really feel like talking, yet I spend a lot of my evening on the computer. Habit? I've got studying to do. Last night I was just so damn tired I didn't bother cracking open the books. Well, the new season of Hell's Kitchen had my attention for an hour. I've been internalizing a lot lately - I go through these phases. There's so much on my mind, that I don't care to talk about it with anyone until I get it sorted out in my head. I thought about discussing some of it here.. but.. it's not time yet.
I AM happy to be receiving a visit from an old friend today. We haven't seen each other for a few months, so we're overdue. He'll be here after physio. He's one of the very few that keep me truly grounded. Someone I'm connected with. Someone with whom we can pick up where we left off.. even if it was 6 months ago. Hmm.. random... I just gave myself some food for thought. I must go ponder this now.
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I´m sorry to read about Your arm hurting. Sort of really takes all energy when that happens! I twisted my ancle yesterday, so I´m home from work.
Those old friends are rare and gold worth! But usually they always seemes to live far away :-)
Take care now!
Christer.
It does take a bit of your energy out, or at least you're very limited in what you can do. Sorry to hear about your ankle. Take it easy today.
My friend cancelled :( But you're right, they are worth their weight in gold. And yes, always far away..heh.
Sorry to hear your friend cancelled. Hope you can meet up soon. Laying low is a good thing to do when you're processing stuff and feeling sensitive. Good luck with your arm.
I'm sorry to hear about your arm, P, and your ankle, Christer. It amazes me how we can be so fragile sometimes, and so strong at other times.
I saw a video of a lioness on a nature show once. She had just had 3 cubs. A poisonous snake saw her lying with her hours-old cubs and bit them all. The cubs died. The lioness almost died too. She laid under a tree for three days foaming at the mouth and panting. And then, she got up! And she was skinny, but she walked back to her pride, real slow. And she started hunting again. And when the photographers visited after a while, she was tip-top.
I know it's silly, but I find strength in those stories.
Thanks, Hydra :) I laid low and did some reading today, results to be vocalized soon (I found something fantastic!).
Thanks, B.
What an inspiring story. The pure survival instinct she felt is fascinating. I guess we all have a moment where we become a bit of a victim to circumstance (is that fair to say?) but decide to stand up and brush ourselves off and survive. Sorry, more relating to your story than to mine :)
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