Catch-up And Ramble

So I sit here with my organic cereal and Metamucil (every time I say that I feel like an old lady) and figured the best time to write was before the day even started.  The past couple days have been good (well, I've been off work, so there's your reason) and spent with friends, so my mood is a bit better.  Later today will be a bit of a busy one; work then choir practice.  A late night with an early morning to follow.  Ugh.

Health - Things are going alright.  I'm on two new meds and they're actually making a difference.  Things aren't perfect or cured by any means, but for the most part, it's improving my quality of life - slowly.  I still can't eat what I want yet, though (and I forget that sometimes. My body is sure to tell me when it's retaliating).  But I've got pills now that I take on occasion that let me travel a bit out of the city.  That's new to me.  I've been anchored in this damn town (as much as I love it) for the past 6 years; I'm happy to be able to travel a bit more now.  I made a trip to CZ's farm (1.5-2 hrs away) without even breaking a sweat.  It was flawless.  I was so excited!  (It's the small things.)  So anyways... the one medication I'm taking on a daily basis, I don't feel great about; it's got a couple ingredients I dislike (aspartame, for one) but it's seems to be helping take the bad bacteria out of the small intestine - which apparently was the problem (whole, or in part of).  And no one says I have to be on it forever, right?  God help me I hope not.

Work - Bleh.

Apartment - I'm kind of stoked to see a new place, I'm not gonna lie.  There are two available in the unit (of just 2 units; one main floor, one upstairs).  One I can easily afford (in fact, I'll even be saving money) and the second I'll have to do some number crunching.  I might be able to talk him down *shrug*

I have to comment on something.  Read my mind that I want to discuss the death of a particular world leader/very bad guy this past week.  (Sorry, but once you've been with military, you avoid the use of buzz-words, so I won't say his name.)  I don't usually bring such high profile issues to my blog, I don't think, but this one's kind of personal.  I won't reveal all my opinions, but please know these are MY opinions, and don't necessarily reflect the opinions of a) anyone else or b) anyone else similar in my past/current situation.  I'm so scared and hesitant to get excited about it.  Part of me is still in shock.  I (and many others) have been waiting for this day for years, for each of our own reasons.  YEARS.  Having had a relationship with K has tied me closer to this war that I ever wanted; it was the reason he re-enlisted, the reason I never saw him very often.  The death of this man, to me, always symbolized K would be one step closer to coming home.  Don't be fooled... there's a lot of work to be done; just because he's dead doesn't mean the fighting will stop.  But you know what?  We're that much damn closer to the end.  So... I'm not ready to accept this piece of information yet.  The world will continue to rejoice and I will sit back with skepticism.  Why?  I don't know.

Does anyone wanna go to work for me this afternoon?  Sure you do.  C'mon.  It'll be fun.

I think I'm gonna start my day now.  Been feeling really tired lately and not sure why, so doing things will take effort.

It's Thursday!  The weekend's almost here.  Hope you've had a good week!

Okay, So I'm Not A Great Poster

So my posting frequency isn't as great as I'd like lately.  Sorry.  Life happens and you get busy.  Or in my case, depressed.

Work hasn't been getting any better.  I'm not going to say much about it here, but just going to say it's causing mass amounts of stress and I'm trying to deal with said stress.  I don't think I've been this stressed out for a few years.  I dislike it highly.  It's filtered its way into my personal life (read: outside of work) a bit and I don't care for that either.  But, I've got a few friends to help me out, so I'm thankful for that.  Asking for help is never easy, but one is usually rewarded when you do :)  CZ came over tonight for tea and we had a few much-needed laughs.  I needed that.

Health is alright.  Not bad, not great.  Well, a bit better.  Still plan to expand on this later.

I walked into an interior design store tonight to look at options for new sheers for the living room, and walked out with a phone number to look at a new apartment.  I'm not really sure how that happened, it was completely random.  But, these things happen for a reason, so we'll see, eh?  I'll talk to the guy next week for a viewing.  Of an apartment I wasn't even looking for.  Random.

I had a nap today.. and it was wonderful.  I don't usually nap, but after last night's late night (post election.. ugh.. stupid, stupid election) I had little sleep.  So Babu and I curled up on the couch together and dozed off for a couple hours :)

Well, that's all I want to write about for now.  I'm going to get to sleep, try and get rid of this stress headache (I don't get headaches often, but I have been getting these.  And Tylenol or Advil doesn't get rid of them..so I'm stuck).

I got a new smart phone (smartphone?).  How does one express proper grammar for 'smart/phone'?  Anyways, been taking pics.  Of Babu :)  And posting on Facebook :)  Hee!

Hope your week has been going well :)  I'm tired and babbling, so I'm gonna write more later :)

Overwhelmed

It seems life has brought me to a crossroads of sorts.  I broke down for a second time at work today (about work stress).  It's getting to be too much.  I've sat back and analyzed why I'm reacting the way I am, though and everything makes sense in that accord.  But.. I'm in, "Something needs to change and change fast because I'm going to explode and go mental if it doesn't change soon" mode.  Change at work, change work PLACES.  I don't know.  I haven't felt like this in years (3, to be exact) and I don't like it because I'm not feeling in control.  The universe (and my body) is telling me something needs to change.  Quickly.  Some things just... don't make sense (when I'm sure they're in perfect sense, I'm just too emotional to see it).  I feel like I need to leave my job quickly, but that's not realistic as there's no other job waiting for me.

Sorry, I'm babbling.

I have a LOT to catch you up on (a weekend at CZ's farm - so much fun, Easter weekend at church and all our singing - and guests! ;), health - good stuff).  So stay tuned.  I'm hoping to write more tomorrow.  Hope everyone is keeping well :)

Another One..

Add this to the hymns; it's being sung tonight. Mind the guy singing in parts - we won't have that, just the choir.

Stay With Me 

Later Edit: I apologize, we do have that extra voice, I forgot.  And I don't mean to boast, but the lady who sings ours is so fantastic, it doesn't do justice what you hear here.  I thought I would fix this before my church people had my head for not mentioning :)

Easter Is Coming!

... and that means a lot of time at church. I just came back from choir practice.

We've got some fantastic hymns coming; Lent & Easter is so good for that.  We're singing the Hallelujah again (remember the Hallelujah?) Easter Sunday morning (I love this video of it; the singers drive me nuts, they barely move (which is proper) but Andre Rieu is like, the best conductor evar).  Can't go wrong with the Hallelujah :)  Another one I want to introduce to you is Lacrymosa, we're singing it Good Friday service.  I searched YouTube high and low and I like this version the best; it's clear and you get a good 'feel' for it.  I don't quite sing it great, but I really do enjoy it.  Another one is Pange, Lingua, Gloriosi; it's a Gregorian chant; really nice to listen to.  I can just smell the incense (the priest lights) whenever I hear that song.  I can't find Jean Racine's Cantique in English anywhere online so this is the link to the original French. Our tenors are fabulous with this song.

We are singing a lot of songs over the next few days, but these are the ones that really take a lot out of us (in a good way - we enjoy singing them!).  I hope you've found the time to peruse them and have enjoyed them also.

It's late, so bed time for me.  Until later!

I'm Baaaaaack....

Helloooooooooooooooooooo.................

I have returned.  Except, I haven't returned enough to write an entire blog post about what's been going on.  I just wanted to tell you I'll be writing soon.  And, God willing if I find any extra hours in the day, post a ton of pictures.

Stay tuned!

Quotes

Life does not have to be perfect to be wonderful.
~ Annette Funichello

Quotes

It is hard to let old beliefs go.  They are familiar.  We are comfortable with them and have spent years building systems and developing habits that depend on them.  Like a man who has worn eyeglasses so long that he forgets he has them on, we forget that the world looks to us the way it does because we have become used to seeing it that was through a particular set of lenses.  Today, however, we need new lenses.  And we need to throw the old ones away.

~ Kenichi Ohmae

Quotes

Repentance is a change in direction.  Repentance is the door of communion.  Repentance is a mountain worth climbing.
~ Jim Forest, of the Orthodox Peace Fellowship

I Assure You, I'm Still Alive

Hey all.

Sorry I've been AWOL.  I've been super, super stressed lately and haven't felt much like talking.  Hence posting quotes, so you know I'm at least still alive :)

There have been work challenges, Lent challenges.  The only area I'm not having challenges with, oddly, is men (shocker, I know.  Try to contain yourself).  Things are good in that department :) :) :)

Anyways, just wanted to poke my head in.  I'll still post quotes (I think you guys like those) and maybe the odd article or two I find.  Don't be afraid to shoot me an email; I'll do my best to respond sooner than later.

Thanks.. and hope everyone had a great weekend.  Enjoy the rest of it!